I don’t know when exactly I’ll get used to writing “2021” out, by hand or on a keyboard. It’ll probably take me longer to get used to saying it, honestly. I can say though, that like most people, I’m glad to see the previous year leave.
Just like many others, I had a somewhat trying 2020. I lost a lot of family. More than I thought I could in one year. I made mistakes and lived through the pandemic we find ourselves in the middle of. The fact that we made it, all of us still here, means something though, I think. I think it stands for something. Things might not get better immediately, in fact it might take a very long time to see notable improvements in the situations of our lives. The lives that were lost and the people close to us will never be replaced, and any mistakes you or I or any of us may have made cannot be unmade. The only thing we can do, is move forward.
The world we live in right now would be unrecognizable to many of us even just two years ago. The trials many of us face regularly now would test even the strongest of us in the best of times. It’s a hard world, and a lot of people are suffering. I do however, believe, that all of us will make it through this, just a little worse for wear.
I was going to write something on New Years Eve to put out there, into the world. Something for those of you that read this to get some entertainment out of, or something that may make you think, but for once in my life I was at a loss for words. I couldn’t decide if I was relieved, or anxious. I didn’t know if I should expect things to get better, or prepare for them to get worse. The only thing I could think to do, is to stop worrying. There’s not much you or I can do to affect the course of this entire year, but as long as we do what we can, we have nothing to worry about.
I hope that as the year passes, no matter how things proceed or turn out, that we continue to allow ourselves to feel love and terror and hatred and passion. I hope that we do not find ourselves indifferent, or apathetic to our situation. I hope that we continue to grow and learn and develop and experience life however we can, rather than finding ourselves blind to the state of the world. Most of all, I hope everyone here has had a wonderful New Year, and that the year is good to you.
Neither love nor terror makes one blind: indifference makes one blind.– James Baldwin, If Beale Street Could Talk