Man

I think it’s a very difficult task, being a man in this western society. That is not to say that I believe it any easier to be a woman, on the contrary, we have it relatively easy as men compared to woman in societies around the world. However, I believe we still suffer. I believe these western societies have created concepts of masculinity meant to keep men complacent, emotionally isolated, and stoic. This is not healthy. I believe that these western societies have created systems where even those that have it easiest don’t necessarily have it easy. I understand what it means to be a man in the western world, I’ve been doing it for nineteen years now. I do not understand how any man, or anybody in general, can live happily like this. I think this society has been built to fail us and caused us to simply accept these failings. I am, sadly, not ignorant enough to not notice. I cannot accept these failings. I cannot live as a western man, anymore.

 What is it to be a man, in the western world? 
I do not know
I do not understand

I do not understand how the western man lives
With his stoicism and indifference
With his consequences of asking for help
I do not understand how the western man may be happy living like this

I cannot fathom continuing
I cannot fathom continuing to live like the western man
In his indifferent, western society
With his might makes right philosophy
I cannot fathom I will continue for much longer

I cannot handle this western life
I cannot handle this western concept of masculinity
I cannot lie to myself and say I drink and I smoke for any reason other than to numb
It does not look cool, I do not feel cool
I feel pain
I cannot handle this western masculinity

I do not know where I can go
I have no markers, no goal-posts, no frame of reference outside the west
I do not know who I may become, what I may become
I do not know what it means to be a man, outside of the western world either

I do know now, I am no son of the West
I am, and always have been, a child of the East

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